A day of errands… partly because I wanted to shop and partly because we forgot some items when we went grocery shopping on Saturday.
I did some craft supply shopping for our Rex Manning Day party and then some spring decor shopping before heading to the grocery store.
I spent way too much time picking out my bunches of flowers, but I love the final outcome. Making flower arrangements is one of my favorite things.
I totally forgot to pick up prescriptions while I was at the store, so I ended up going back a few hours later. Between Ashlynn and I, we have forgotten to pick up prescriptions a good dozen times in the past week. It was even on my grocery list today, and I still forgot. Oy. Store count today: 4 – 1 craft store, 1 decor store and 2 trips to the grocery store.
I’m proud of myself. I also managed to arrange flowers, take down St. Patrick’s Day decor and pack away, start putting up spring decor, play with the pup, take a shower, Iron (I have had a huge pile of things needing to be ironed… 8 placemats, 16 napkins, 2 table runners, 1 table cloth, and 2 pairs of pants). Also, I gave hugs to a friend and played Hogwarts Legacy with Scott. It was a very full day, besides aching in my legs and feet. I’m doing okay… tired but okay.
On deck for tomorrow is finish spring decorating and maybe do some cleaning. Otherwise, rest. Thinking of which I should try and sleep.
Focusing on writing is tougher than I thought it would be, even focusing on taking a photo a day seems to be trickier than I had expected. Oy, I truly miss the old Corrine… can I get a refund on this MS thing? Really though, I feel quite lucky that my symptoms are not horrid… as I know many are struggling much more than me. I continue to feel like my biggest obstacle is the fatigue and the brain fog and focus.
I may not be doing a post or picture a day like I originally planned but I’m also not giving up. Because I totally got this and as my sister says… I can do big things… or small things. So here’s the last few days.
March 28
Reminder to give myself kudos, even on the rougher days. Friday was tough. My whole body was exhausted and in pain. A combination of feeling like I was going non-stop and from my menstrual cycle making me want to die. Besides those feelings I still accomplished most of our laundry from the past week and a shower. A had a mini mental breakdown realizing there was not a possibility that my body would allow me to go to the Denverse spring issue release with Scott. I also knew that if I went to the magazine release that I then wouldn’t make it to book club the next day… and that was more important to me. The constant struggle of doing fun things or listening to my body and resting. I instead spent most my day and night curled in various positions on the couch zoning out to tv shows. Currently I am rewatching JAG.
Friday’s only photo… the lighting has my hair looking much redder than I think it looks most days.
March 29
I had issues sleeping the night before. I may not have gone to the event with Scott but I was still very much awake when he got home after midnight. The lack of sleep seems to be a pattern again and the average sleeping time is less than 5 hours. But, I woke with wanting to get some things done.
One of the main things… a menu and grocery list. You can see the start of a menu and the start of our grocery list below including the crossed out start of a menu from the week before. We haven’t had a menu or even have bought groceries since before Scott’s birthday. Our fridge has been oddly bare and we’ve been relying on frozen food or eating out for all our meals.. which is totally not our norm. We love cooking and having mostly balanced meals. So, Saturday morning Scott and I spent a bit hashing out our menu and grocery list. Ashlynn had requested a big batch of gravy so she had some breakfasts for the week and since breakfast for dinner is tasty we decided to start our week with that. This week we’re still digging in more to comfort food… as our brains are elsewhere but I’m hopeful with salads back in the rotation for lunches we’ll get back to our more healthy food options.
It was so nice to be back at book club… not that I read anything as sometimes is the case for a lot of us… but it was good to see everyone. And the coffee/plant store we were at was super cute! From an inside greenhouse and plants everywhere to swings to sit and sip your coffee to a fascinating rotating letter marquee. I was able to catch up with Jessica and give the hugs. Plus then have many laughs about Petey (the venus flytrap that Sara and Sam bought while there).
This kitty fishing was so darn cute! I didn’t get a full photo but at the end of the fishing line was an origami fish folded out of money that was being pulled out of their tip jar. Also, barista art is one of my favorite things. And this cute heart cactus spinning… ahhh… so cute!
After book club we headed more North to my mother-in-laws. I keep catching myself asking how she is doing. I am not sure there is an answer to that question and never experiencing that kind of loss I realize that the things I can do is be there and listen to the stories she has of Roy and show her love. We did a few things around her house she needed help with and then went and got us all food… there’s a Tamale Kitchen just a few blocks away. We have been making sure her supply of Mexican food has been abundant the past few days… Ashlynn had brought her Santiago’s on Friday and Sam had brought up green chile and burrito makings earlier in the week.
Then Scott and I headed back down South and to the grocery store. It’s nice to have a stocked fridge and fresh veggies and fruit again. My spoon/fatigue level had been almost gone but I am so glad we went to the store! That way we both could rest the next day. After getting groceries put away I curled into a blanket nest (thanks Bee for this amazing term) on the couch with candles lit and doors/windows open so I could hear the steady sounds of rain and the delicious smell of the rain and occasional snow flakes and that nice chill in the air felt wonderful as I watched my movie.
March 30
My planned day of not doing much. Although I felt pressure to pick up slightly, vacuum and take a shower before Bee came over at 11. I’m slowly getting better about the appearance of the house and it not needing to be perfect when we have someone over but the toilets clean, floors clean thing doesn’t go away easy. Plus, it gave me the push I needed to shower… if I don’t shower in the morning when my energy is not yet severely depleted I find that it’s then too hard take one later in the day.
So, I may have started my morning at the table but that didn’t last long. After my shower I retreated to the couch with candles going and window open… embracing the cold, wet vibes from the outside as I planned Rex Manning Day and shopped online while starting to write this blog post. The brain as it is most days seemed scattered but I still was able to get most of the party planned then rested until making our biscuits and gravy for dinner.
March 31
Sleep was semi-elusive again and my body definitely wanted more sleep as I had prolonged getting out of bed and telling my body just a few more minutes but the urge to go potty had then turned to necessity. I sat at the table finishing the plans and buying the chosen things for Rex Manning Day and then making a Facebook event. And because today was also a day of not much planned I finally got around to reposting the MS Walk information on Facebook. The level of fatigue it takes to do posts or interact with anything or anyone online is overwhelming. I think that’s why I’ve not shared or posted more about the walk in the past few weeks to friends and family because the task just seemed so hard. A lot of things feel that way. I joke about finding it hard to brush teeth somedays… but that is true. It is… even the thought of doing something makes me want to just lay down and sleep/not sleep instead. Oy.
Anyway, so here I am… I have been on the computer most the day… first at the table and then in various positions on the couch writing this post that also felt oh so daunting. But I am loving being back to doing my ramblings. It’s still mostly journalesque in writing but that doesn’t matter, what matters is I’m still doing it. I do however need to wrap this up… after saying showers later in the day are hard… I need to take a shower… since we have dinner plans with friends across town.
So for now… enjoy whichever cups ☕️… and remember to give yourself peace and grace.
When did I stop taking photos? I used to document everything. From my first coffee all the way through the end of the day. Pictures of nature, friends, family, food, drinks… and now I rarely take a photo.
My coffee cup yesterday morning, I specifically chose, reminding myself that I am awesome. Even though I really wasn’t feeling it.
I also wasn’t feeling this outfit… the top half… cute… the bottom half of the outfit had me feeling heavy and gross. When I’m the heaviest weight I’ve been, it’s hard to feel cute. So, I only documented the top half. Plus, my makeup… da bomb!
Yesterday’s national manatee day had me singing Veggie Tales… 🎶Barbara manatee…🎶
We had a long day, including the funeral home, so Scott and I went to a brewery to decompress with beer and dinner. It also happened to be trivia night, which we decided to play. Where they even mentioned manatee day… which had me singing again because Silly Songs With Larry is a thing. Hehehe.
So today (Thursday the 27th), I had real intentions of taking a photo of my cup. Did it happen? Nope. I was focused on taking pills and timing my food. The pain was/is a big deal today. Oh, well.
I did, however, take a photo of this goofball. I never thought I’d ever have a dog in the house, and here we are… proud grand-puppy parents. I still am not a fan of all the dog hair and dog smell, but gosh, she’s cute. She’s also great company when I’m owie and don’t want to move from the couch. She lays on the floor near me and gives me these cute moments or stretches out for a nap.
Today also brought dinner and drinks with hockey folks from Scott’s beer league… did I take a photo at dinner? Nope. Because, apparently, I forget those things now. We all then headed over to Swallow Hill to support another one of the hockey peeps… Rodney Rice who opened for Matt Axton. Both bands were amazing. I did get photos of each of them. I’m super proud of that feat. Srsly, when did taking photos become so hard for me?
Rodney RiceMatt Axton
So now, here I am still writing, and what was today is now yesterday because it’s past midnight. I guess the point of this, though, is that I am writing again. It doesn’t matter when it’s happening, just that it is. Also, because, at least for now, these musings are just for me… a journal of sorts.
So I guess that’s it for today… I’m hoping tomorrow brings a coffee picture. One can hope. But for now… I hope your cups were tasty ☕️
Had my morning coffee outside with Coffee this morning. We sunbathed a bit.
Whatever sinus thing I felt yesterday seems to be gone and my energy was surprisingly okay. So, of course, I tried to do all the things. I really need to work on moderation.
And when I say I did all the things… really, all I did was clean our bedding, put away the guest bedroom bedding, play with Coffee (a few times), vacuum downstairs, shower, and make our bed. I also paid a medical bill online and did some Amazon shopping. For a normal human… not much… for me… it felt like I was accomplishing neurosurgery on the moon. Oh, how I miss being able to do those things, plus 10 others, and still work a full day.
I rewarded myself with a Harp to go with my snack of pretzels after accomplishing the things today. It also was probably the first time I’d sat down in a few hours. I was so afraid of sitting before getting all the things done for fear of then not taking my shower (one of the last things I did). Yet again, I need to work on the moderation.
I found this today, and I loved the sentiment. I am magic… I AM A FOREST.
I think that’s it for tonight… peace and love with your nighttime cups. ☕️
After trying to rest but also be productive yesterday from not being home most of last week, my body decided to rebel. I woke with sinus congestion and felt just yuck most of the day. So, I spent most of the day under a blanket on the couch or wandering aimlessly around the house.
Coffee Bean would come over periodically seeing if I was okay, and then we’d play a bit, too.
I was also able to catch the tail end of the sunset tonight. It was gorgeous.
I hope tomorrow brings more energy and more happy cups ☕️
Today has felt much like this moose wandering through a dense forest… feeling sluggish and sore everywhere.
I need to keep reminding myself that the point of not sharing these posts is so that I don’t feel obligated to write long, insightful things. I want to recap all the things and tell the stories of the good and bad things in my life. This week I’m wanting to remember birthday celebrations, the stories and the laughs and cries shared through grief, the community Scott has in hockey and so much more.
Instead, I’m taking it slow… taking the coffee picture and even if not posting them the day of making sure I still post them.
With the weight of the past few days I am finding more of an importance to take the time to make sure I center myself… even if it’s just the whiff of the coffee and a quick picture.
Hug your people, tell them you love them and support eachother.
I took this picture as we were racing out of the house on our way north…
unfortunately, Scott’s step-dad passed away just minutes before we got to the hospital. I am thankful that Scott was able to spend a couple of days over the past few weeks with Roy before his death.
