Oh ‘Ello, I’ve missed you…

My heart hasn’t been quite into writing recently. Caught up in trying to make the holiday season magical, trying to be an attentive wife to my amazing husband as he continues to work from home and trying to be a supportive and task manager mom to the teen as she continues to struggle with school. And then failing at all the things. The past few weeks I’m not gonna lie… it’s been tough. Last week our house blew up… emotionally. We have worked through most of the turmoil but I also know that this wasn’t the first nor will it be the last. The stressors of pandemic life.

I am not perfect and neither is my family. We all struggle. My teenager who has struggled academically and now is trying to manage school amidst a pandemic. My husband who has the stress of working from home and feeling the pressure of being the only bread winner and working for a startup. Me, trying to define my new role as a stay at home mom and feeling like I’m failing at it.  All of us grieving in different ways from the loss of a friend and of a sense of normalcy and missing the “before times”. These things amongst a pandemic life is a lot.

And yet, I feel lucky. Lucky that we’ve stayed healthy. As many are dealing with loss… Loss of a loved one, Covid or non-covid related. Loss of a job and the uncertainty of how to provide. Loss of housing and a fear of having shelter. Loss of togetherness. I’m lucky.

Things I’m learning in this process… Grace, Patience… so much patience. And Love. Surround your house, your friends and neighbors with encompassing Love. We all have found burdens we never thought we needed to bear. Some of us feel broken and miss the closeness of friends and family. And some of us have seen the tipping point and still are trying to tread through the muck and feel like we’re drowning. Please know you are not alone, there is a light… however far off it might feel.

I love you, I hear you, I see you, I miss you

Many hugs ❤️