Today’s first cup was while I looked through events and updated my Google calendar.
My second cup had a couple gingerbread cookies dunked in it… sooo good. Then finished while I wandered around the house with no real motivation and trying to stave off the cold feeling. Yes, I know it’s warm outside, but this cold comes from being tired. The so tired that you shiver cold.
My third cup I succombed to my tired, turned on the fire and nested into blankets. Then, after getting comfy, I needed to go potty (always seems to happen). Then I wandered around more… forgetting about the coffee and blankets. But realizing the tireds again and my foot is dropping with each step, I’m now back on the couch nested in blankets. My cold cup abandoned on the side of the couch because I don’t want something cold. I think this is where I’ll stay for a couple hours, maybe I’ll let my eyes close and maybe then I’ll wake feeling rested or at least less tired and warmer.
On a side note: There’s many things since my diagnosis that have me question how long I’ve actually had MS. It’s a natural process of wanting to know if there were warning signs that could have helped discover it before it got bad. One of those is the drop foot. Although now it’s very pronounced and happens not just when I’m tired. But looking back, I’ve had issues with my foot dragging with severe tiredness for years. Was that a warning sign… maybe, maybe not. Is it my brain trying to rationalize the many flaws of my body through the years… probably.
I love that I have no obligations today, and after finishing decorating yesterday, I don’t have a pressing need to get things done around the house. So I’ll rest for a bit and then maybe go on a walk this afternoon if the tiredness has subsided.
I’m thinking of hosting a movie party for myself tonight. Popcorn, candy, and some wine. Yep. I have no clue what movie, but I like the idea of watching something on purpose.
For now though… rest. May your cups be filled with Love and Warmth today. ❤️☕️