The last few days, I’ve been trying to overcome some of the hurdles that I’ve put in place.
It’s easy to say that because of my MS diagnosis, I can’t do things. Sometimes, that is true. But I’ve also let myself be complacent in letting it dictate some of the things in my life. Getting frustrated and depressed over the difficulties instead of finding the joy and beauty in my life. So I’ve built myself walls and barriers, finding it easier and easier to stop doing things. Don’t get me wrong, my fatigue, sight issues, and walking problems definitely play a part in my day to day life, so it’s been hard to find a balance.
Slowly over the past couple weeks, I’ve been taking back some of me. Pictures from the past couple weeks…
Over the past couple of weeks, I went to a couple concerts, went to book club, celebrated a good friend’s 40th birthday, been part of the cheer section for Scott at his hockey games, supported a friend being sexy and awesome at her pole class spring exhibition. Met my new neurologist, been to both locations of the Botanic Gardens, and celebrated my 15th wedding anniversary.
I finished a book! When my eyes started to be affected by MS, I struggled reading, so this was a huge milestone for me. Plus, I’ve found energy to be doing more around the house. A month ago, even a load of laundry took up all 5 spoons in my day.
We got overly dressed up to go to PF Changs. All because 15 years ago we ended up here after our wedding & reception. That’s a story for another time.
I’m going on more walks on my own or with Scott or Ashlynn. I’m doing my physical therapy exercises, and I’ve restarted practicing yoga. The fatigue gets the better of me some days, and I still can find myself being sedentary, but I’m trying to find the balance.
On deck for this week:
More yoga and walks. I want to give myself a daily goal of doing something that makes me move each day.
Start a new book.
Watch playoff hockey, both professional hockey, Go Avs! … and Scott’s playoff game Thursday night, Go Nordiques!
Indie1023 Music Meet-up with The Mssng concert (twice seeing them in 3 days).
Finish prep & planning for the MS Walk with meeting spot for the walk and food options for afterwards. Plus send out texts with info and thank yous to donors. Plus finalizing my outfit, doing returns, and figuring out the orange extensions for my hair.
Getting a pedicure and a manicure.
Shop for our wedding anniversary getaway items because we leave 2 days after the walk.
MS Walk Denver Saturday!
All these things still give me a bit of anxiety as my energy is hit or miss each day and there’s still the normal upkeep of the house. But I’ll tackle what I can and continue to give myself grace.
Because… I Am Fierce.
As always my friends… enjoy your cups today. ☕️❤️☕️